I've Come to Say Hello

It's been a minute and I just feel that I have a lot of opinions that I really just need to get down and out so they can pass by... I should actually work on meditation so that I can just clear them out of my head on demand. Be in control of your thoughts, it should be simple. They are, after all, my thoughts. 

On Facebook: My facebook mobile app finally started working today... I hope that is a more permanent situation. Although, I didn't really miss it so it shows how much I really care. 

On Facebook Picture Posting & Pregnancy: Wearing cute little prego outfits and having a regular picture taken is pretty cute or even the pictures of the baby shower and they measure the belly, cool. Even the sonogram pics are fine, although, I don't see what people see in them, it seems like it should be more of an intimate thing but that's no big deal, it would just be *my* intimate thing. There's just one thing that erks me and I feel bad about it. It's the belly pics. Yes, I can 'block' you or something so I don't have to see them but then I block your status' too and other noninvasive photos and such. You know, all that stuff that people facebook stalk for! And that's not really what I want to do. I just don't care to see your prego bellies and I'm sorry but I'm just not that person that says "aww". Not me. I wish I wasn't so opinionated about it but it's been driving me CRAZY lately. Further, if I were pregnant, I wouldn't subject you to that visual either. I mean as long as you can do it classy but I don't wanna see your bathroom belly pics. The pregnancy professionals or the few that the baby shower are great. Only 1 person did the play-by-play belly pics and could get away with it. One person out of all you pregnant ladies doesn't justify seeing all these belly pics pop up on my screen. I guess you are proud of it or something but be proud with your family and get your pictures developed. Or send them to your loved ones that want to see them, why subject everyone to it? I know, I'm so awful and I almost wish I could hear some reasons why people put them up without attacking my opinion.. I am sorry I feel the way I do but for some reason I just wish I could block pictures for those that post just until you're all done but not have to block you completely. I guess I just do not see the beauty in pregnancy. It takes a toll on your body inside and out and causes problems such as loosing control of your pelvic floor ie incontinent when you're old, ie someone has to take care of you because you can't hold your bladder. 

On Facebook Status:

Man I wish I could just give my 2 cents on other messages. Although, no one cares about my opinion. I really just would like to see if anyone has thought about it the way that I do at some point. For example, I read a status today that said something about I like Fiji. Now, I know that this person hasn't been to Fiji but maybe they looked something up and like the place. However, doubtful. I automatically assume (which makes an ass outa you and me) that the person is referring to Fiji water. Did you know that buying bottled water in America is the most ridiculous thing? We do have clean drinking water. That you pay for at home or can get 'for free' out of a water fountain or something? Do you know how much pollution you are causing? Also, did you know that people in Fiji do not have clean drinking water? However, you prefer drinking their water and not ours? So ridiculous! I just do not understand how our culture has become such selfish, I don't care what I do to the earth, and I don't care about what market/business I am supporting as long as I get what I want. Just bogs my mind down. 

On Breakfast:

I am so glad I was able to have breakfast with my boyfriend this morning. Not because we were able to have it together but because we actually had a conversation at breakfast. I feel that most of the time, there isn't much conversation except for "What do you want to do?" "What do you want to eat?" "What are we going to eat?" "How was your day?" "What are you doing?" "Do you want to run?" "Are you going to run today?" "Are you going to workout?" "Do you want to workout at the gym today?". 

BORING

Any suggestions for keeping conversation alive in the relationship. This talk just seems sooo mundane. 

That's all for now.. 

Shorty

I'm pretty tired but it's been a while so I thought I would catch up with myself.
I'm never up this late. I actually have already slept for 4 hours (8pm-12am) and will be joining my sweets again in a bit. Everythign has been chaotic. I was sick for a week, now Chris has been sick for a week (much more of a trooper than me I might add but at the same time, we had two very different "illnesses" -his is still unknown) but hopefully we will be getting back on track soon.
Due to this stupid infection, I am not behind on everything. Some of it is my own procrastination/lack of priority revamping, and some of it is because of the sickness -well, the time off I had at work due to the infection.

My monthly resolutions have kinda all broken down but I've taken April and decided that with what's left of it I am going to do my best to get back on track before May. About May, I'm not sure what to do with it. I think I am going to consider my May as my "new" month. I want to learn new things and that is what is going to be compact with. I can't believe it's almost May anyway! So between PT cert studying, GRE studying, and perhaps adding a dance class to my already hectic work schedule with trying to get back on financial track (new medical bills + week off -no sick leave here), I should be slammed because my free time will be dogs, lover, working out, maintaining a healthy diet, which takes time and effort, and fitting some fun in there at some point. So the "new" thing would mainly be the dance class but the actual resolution would be to try/learn 3 new things and I've already picked them out. Take a dance class = 1 but is really got a few in there. I wanna try this Hip-Hop conditioning class, a ballroom sampler class, and latin dancing classes...(maybe one more) but money is always the thing. The second new thing to learn would be my guitar, so take lessons, and the 3rd, piloxing cert.

On a different note, I believe that I will have Bentley neutered in about a year from now. Not that my decision on that has any relevance on the above statements but just something I was thinking about :)

Tomorrow is Easter. I'm not particularly religious and I'm not going to church, I won't see my family either. The meaning of Easter is really so forgotten as people have found ways to capitalize on all of the religious holidays that I barely see the point in 'celebrating' this year. Not that I am disagreeing with the yummy chocolate cadbury mini eggs or anything, but I just haven't felt that special something the past few years. Maybe it's because I'm so far away from family, or maybe it's because I haven't been to church in nearly 10 years (and when I say 10 years, I mean more than 1day/wk on consecutive weeks to any faith-based facility, I've attended some places here and there since I left home for college).

My food expeditions are still going well. I have more of a picture blog on facebook. I am also connected onto myfitnesspal and dailymile, not to mention, linkedin. So many places to post and all about different things and now you can sync it all up with facebook. Yay! Except, facebook is such a bitter sweet social network. It was much better when it was college students only. It made things much easier and privacy so much more simplistic in the light of how it is today. There are so many privacy options that it's hard to even manage to set them correctly and as soon as you figure it out, they change the damn thing or someone that you have put some settings on proves that there is a loop hole somewhere and good luck finding it.

On a s/n, I believe that AT&T and Firefox have a deal and it's cool but I wish Safari was in on it so that I could use my preferred browser without a stupid "broadband link error" page which seems to occur the most frequently on my banking website. Anyone else have this issue? :(

Well I'm just all over the place. I'm starting to get hungry again (skipped dinner since we passed out like an old couple at 8pm) so I better get to sleep because I sure don't wanna hunt for something to eat and I don't want another round of my beloved frosted flakes right now.

GOODNIGHT!! :)

Introduction required

"The Introduction of Sorts"
I am writing this as a relief for my non-stop brain! I just can't get out of my head. It's very irritating because it now has an affect on how quickly I am able to fall asleep... and if sleep is interrupted, then it takes over for an hour or more until I'm able to go to sleep again.

I'm not really thinking anyone will be reading this. I hope to learn more about the different privacy settings blogger provides but there's nothing secret or special in here.

My inspiration? Lying, awake, in bed last night. I seem to have more creative ways to express myself at the worst times... ya know when it's inconvenient to get up and get a computer because everyone is asleep... waking the dogs up causes quite the ruckus in the middle of the night. All of a sudden someone is thirsty or has to potty and it is just URGENT!

"The New Year's Resolution of Resolutions"
This year has been pretty good. There are things to be "depressed" about, if you will, but I hope to keep those self destructing thoughts under control. It's all about self improvement & happiness this year. I even have probably the very best idea for myself I have ever had. Although, not very unique to me I'm sure... but it's brilliant for me. I get very bored and forget about things I want to improve. My new year's resolution is to have a new resolution for every month of the year. AMAZING! Truly the best idea I have come up with the constant desire for self improvement. As I have grown older, I have realized there are so very many things about myself that I just don't like and the more I see certain loved ones I "take after", the more I want to try to be better and not make the same mistakes and contain the "beast inside of me". I'm hoping this, too, will help.

Jan: Reduce debt, get a hold of my financial situation, and take charge of my credit score... very complicated but I can only do the best I can and hopefully it will pay off until I can get some professional advice and explanations for sure!

Feb: Be on time... this will always be a work in progress... but I hope to become much better with this perpetuating, some how genetic trait I have absorbed.

March: floss.

"The Hugging People"
Have you ever noticed that people that hug others seemed to be more liked by others? I think it is because we are actually a very needy, touchy species. I believe that we do not touch others enough. Of course, I mean hugging, or showing some kind of affection for the other. There have been studies revolving around this very concept. People how are touched less have been found to be more depressed or more likely to be or become depressed or have some issue or another. Maybe that's why some people would rather be in bad relationships than to move on because they still have someone to be with, lay with, even when it's going under. Who knows. I don't really care. I just know that I want to be one of those hugging people. Why? Because I freaking LOVE hugs! I love giving and receiving. My boyfriend gives the best hugs :)